Me and my partner became poly a couple of months ago. It's been a little challenging for me since I have a lot of insecurities and hard time talking to people in general. The thing is that some times isn't even insecurity, I just feel a repulsion(?). Like, I feel weird when me and my partner meet and I know that they've been with someone else. It feel weird to kiss them and show them affection. When someone else tries to flirt with me or something, it's like my body freezes and I feel repulsive and dirty. In the last days whenever my partner went into dates I couldn't do a thing all day. I just laid in bed crying for no apparent reason besides childish insecurity. When does it get easier? When will I get used to it? When will this just work??