Trying to decolonize my perception of relationships and allow space for my partner to do as she pleases but I’m often feeling anxious and triggered.

We’ve opened up our relationship in a sexual way for at least 9 months now. We aren’t quite looking for partners of our own or anything like that yet. We’re more into things happening organically.

I have a hard time every so often. It’s mainly by these club events we go to once a month. I’m not sure how to advocate for my boundaries and not feel guilty and then instantly cave.

I’m nervous because I don’t have health insurance until January and I don’t trust people about getting tested regularly and the thought of her making out with strangers we don’t 100% trust makes me feel very activated.

She’s 25 f and I’m 27 nb

I don’t own her, she should feel free spirited, liberated, and supported exploring her kinky and sexual side.

I love this woman and respect her so much. I don’t want to let her down but I’m having a hard time right now.