polyamory sucked for me, I enjoyed the people that I met during my time, And i've ended up making some solid friendships out of failed talking stages. I would have enjoyed polyamory more if there was more understanding people in my area who also practiced. Instead, I have people who say they are but they're trying to get in bed with you first night they match. Sadly its been like that with most of them as somebody who's always had a hard time forming relationships with men, I was hoping that polyamory would allow me to get over that and not be so scared. I think if anything it made it worse, I did disclose that I wasn't quite interested in being intimate until I was comfortable which mean't "👻" to them. It became discouraging because it felt like there was no meaningful connections to ever be built, and that I would only ever be seen as just a extra sex partner🤮🤮 there's nothing wrong with that, but as somebody who is really trying not to be, it was very discouraging.

So I took a almost six month break, and during this time I made the decision that I wasn't getting any happiness from being poly and closed the door. It felt like the right thing to do for myself and I wanted to share this, because I see a lot of people come in who say that they are interested in trying. I think it's only fair for people to see all sides while exploring and researching.