Hi everyone. I am a 32F who has been practising polyamory seriously for about a year. My nesting partner and I have been together 8 years. My other partner and I have become pretty serious after about 8 months. What we have is so amazing and special and neither of us have felt the sparks and passion that we have with anyone else we've ever dated. Yes there is NRE involved but there is still something different that neither of us has experienced in the past. I made sure when getting into the new relationship that my metamor was okay with everything and what their boundaries were. she was the didn't wanna know much type which has always been in the back of my head. but now out of the blue after giving her consent she is very upset about me being in the picture. I guess she read some of our text messages. This is basically all i know at this point and i am left to wait to see what this means for us. i cant stop thinking about the millions of possibilities and whats going to happen. They have two kids together which is the only reason i think he would even consider breaking things off with me, so as not to hurt them. I know he needs to make the right decision for him but its killing me not knowing where i stand. hes told me before that things are special with us and he wouldn't let anything come between us but kids is a different story. I just needed to vent to someone who understands and hopefully i hear from him soon.

To add to my sadness, i tried to get support from my mother who knows that i am polyamorous but she was no help because she really doesn't understand how i can love two people. shes not a fan of my nesting partner and thinks that because i have someone new that means i don't love my nesting partner and i should get rid of them and become monogamous with my new partner and he should get a divorce. So she just turned it around to how much she dislikes my nesting partner and made me even more upset and stressed.

Thank you all for listening. I just really needed someone to talk to. sorry for the long posting