I have always felt nonhuman, but I can't think of what I am. Could you guys help me with pinpointing which species I could be, fictional or otherwise?

I have species dysphoria, homesickness, and every time I try to draw myself, I end up making myself look either very robotic or a merfolk or a plant/dryad of some sort.

I feel most connected to the earth element as well as the water element, and I am trying to figure out what feels good to me personally to call myself.

I feel confused and some parts of me think I could be a phytanthrope, and some parts of me feel I could be a robot/AI, and then theres a part of me that feels merfolk-ish.

As you can see I am quite confused and would like to pin down what I am. Please help me.