It’s our five year anniversary and she’s been depressed for the past two years. Like, barely had the energy to get out of bed in the morning depressed. It comes in waves but has lately had more bad days than good ones, and I do what I can to support her. I take a late lunch at work to make sure she gets to therapy on time when she has a session, I take her grocery shopping to make sure she gets out of the house at least once a week, and even adopted a cat for us (which helped for a while) despite being slightly allergic. Nothing helps, and it’s eating away at me and my self confidence/esteem.

And now, as I watch her barely acknowledge what today is for us (we ordered takeout and watched a movie she likes because she didn’t have much else in the tank), it’s dawning on me that I’m waiting for her to get better or find the breakthrough she needs but never get. And that I’m reaching my limit with her :/

Just feel shitty for even wanting to consider not loving this person anymore. We wanted to have kids together at one point and now I can’t imagine raising a child with anyone, let alone her.