Myself and my partner have a friend we have both known for around 4 months now. The friend is great! Shes the type of person we both had an instant friendship connection with due to having lots in common. Me and my partner have lots of joint friends but there's something special about this one.

It became clear pretty quickly that there was sexual tension between all 3 of us. We would flirt in each others company and text almost constantly and send subtle flirty messages. On a recent night out with a large group of friends the sexual tension was wild. We all ended up drinking quite a bit that night sleeping in the same bed. Nothing happened apart from some cuddling and touching legs and hips but we all wanted the same thing.

The other day myself, my partner and our friend decided to had a theeesome and I have been left feeling really confused. Everyone consented, we discussed likes, dislikes and boundaries beforehand and everyone had great fun. We don't have any regrets about it happening.

I've been left feeling really confused with how I've been feeling. One minute I am extremely happy and can't stop thinking about the amazing night we had but the next I feel incredible sad and cry about it. Why am I feeling this this and is this normal? Looking for some advice from people who are more experienced with these sort of sexual experiences