So this is from my own personal experience. It’s so hard to be who I am, my family sees me as this big strong guy but I’m really not. I just want to be babied and held, told everything is gonna be okay and that they are proud of me. I have family members that rely on me mentally, so I trick myself into thinking I don’t need anybody and I need to stay strong alone. I couldn’t be more wrong. I’m typing this right now as I’m currently alone and slipping into that little mentality, feeling vulnerable. It’s strange for me, I’ve never been able to explore this side of me even tho it’s more natural than anything else I force during the day. I find myself slipping more and more often without meaning to. I have to stay strong for the people that lean on me, but I so desperately want someone I can lean on as well. I’d it too much to want to call someone mommy and crawl into their arms to watch movies? This is just a personal little vent I might regret when I have to force myself out of this “little” stage but it’s my own truth that anybody irl can’t know. I’m sorry for anyone else that struggles like this as well. I also want to take each and every one of you mommies for even existing, you deserve the most love imaginable and I hope you know you are appreciated immensely. Vent over, I hope you all have a good day :)