So i was absolutely fine right after getting home and for some reason blew up after a reminder of something she did (it was actually preTTy harmful but i forgive her) and i got sassy and the ball kept rolling.

I actively while typing it didnt want to send it and didnt mean it. I dont like games either but i wish she would fight for us instead of just blow up and be really mean. I know without meth i would have the patience to be a better man. It sucks realizing. I flushed my last rock down the toilet and am painfully melting down all my pipes into jewelry. No talking between us atm and im trying to not be crazy but i am a little crazy never with any other person though but i dont think i ever cared. Why did i do that? Both to the mood swing and also tp the flushing. I should've ate the while 2 g's and sweated out my sin.