So, the title is a mess basically long story short I was SA’d as a child, one of the perpetrators (my dad) passed away 2 weeks ago… I am taking it actually pretty hard, due to the SA our relationship was supposed to be strictly porn free though he hasn’t done a good job of that in the past. Anyways since the last D-day I haven’t found anything suspicious on his phone or computer, or anywhere else, now that my dad passed my sex drive obviously plummeted and we haven’t had sex since it happened, and I’m worried he will go back to porn, and I don’t think I can handle it. I really don’t know what I’m asking for… I hope he’s done. I hope he won’t go back to porn… I don’t think I can handle it if he does right now. Thanks for reading my rant.