Edit: the large majority of my weight loss has been from weight lifting and minimal cardio. I see a personal trainer in a private gym three times a week.

I never expected this. It started early on in my weight loss as my body started changing. I thought it would get better, but it's only getting worse. I've always been bigger, so being self conscious is nothing new. Around five or six years ago I finally figured out how to love my body and be happy with myself. I've spent 27 years desperately trying to love my body, and now it's changing.

The body I love is no longer the body I have. My stomach has dimples and looks loose, my lower stomach/fupa area looks like an inner tube around me, and my boobs are becoming saggy with loose skin.

I've never felt like this before. At first it was a victory or a sign that things were happening. Now I HATE it. I look in the mirror the same way I used to at 16. I'm constantly poking and prodding to see which part of my skin is stretching more. I'm really trying to stay positive and let the loose skin be a trophy of how far I've come, but it makes want to quit all together to prevent any further changes.