sometimes i get really bored and it turns into extreme loneliness. it gets really hard for me bc i’m such a social person but i feel kind of weird, selfish or like ungrateful bc i have a wonderful understanding partner but i yearn for more, more connections and interactions 😕

the attention i receive on the internet is good and bad, good that it’s nice but bad as that everyone wants to fuck me like i’m nothing more than that, how is that supposed to make me feel. most of the time i think i’m shit but sometimes i don’t and then ppl ruin it by being extremely out of pocket

i just don’t know what to do sometimes, i’m like autopilot on a plane, then i’m like i should go here, try something new and then they shoot me out of the sky and then i’m back to autopilot