Im just depressed in general. I've been treated like shit by a lot of people, it completely hurt my self esteem and now I feel worthless. I have a good family, a handful of close friends, but I never had a girlfriend. To think that someone would actually want to be with me is amazing because no one (not even my friends) text me to hang out. I just want someone to walk around campus with, go on car rides, go on walks, cuddle, be intimate, but I dont know how to do those things. I hate myself and I'm not worth it at all because of what people did to me. All I do is go to class, excercise, do my homework, then smoke a ton of weed and drink on the weekends to get rid of this garbage thats my brain.