I was married for 17 years and then my wife left for greener pastures. I've never really been the same since. I'm over her specifically... I don't want her back... but I'm suffering being alone. It's not that I can't make it on my own. I can and have been. But I'm not happy. It's like I'm a fish taken out of water and I'm flopping around and dying. Someone just throw me back in! Or it's like I'm a mandrake in Harry Potter. Shove me back in the pot already! I'm happier there. I just very much prefer the married lifestyle and I miss it. I don't like being alone. I thrive better in partnership, in close companionship. It's literally easier for me to care for myself when I have someone else to care for. My own self-care starts to slip when I'm untethered from love too long. I'm very unhappy and lonely and life just feels heavier and pointless. God send me a woman to love, who will actually love me back. If you can hear me, lady, wherever you are, come find me! Me and my cat need you.