I feel kind of like a ghost. The kind that can't interact with things, and that nobody can see or hear. I try to reach out and be cheery and curious, but nothing. No friends, nobody who cares, nobody who will talk with me.

could be with the same people as someone else, someone new they don't know, say the same thing, before they say it, and I get no response. Nobody can hear me, or cares enough to hear me. And the other person, who said the same thing? They get pulled into the group, like it's easy. And that repeats no matter where I go or what I do. Again and again and again.

I don't hate anyone. I don't put this on anyone but myself. I work on my own projects to keep my mind off of things. I was going to be working on them anyway, friends or no friends. I get I'm not for everyone. But is there really nobody? Am I really that... I don't know, cursed? Unlikable? I'd hate if it was because I was creepy somehow, or rude. Those are the last things I'd want people to think of me. I don't know what I'm doing here, I'm just venting and I don't have anybody to say this to