With the exception of doctor's appointments I have not been able to be social in 8 years because I had a spinal cord injury and it is too painful to move. I slowly watched all my friends slip away and that's okay they have lives to live. The effects of isolation on me weren't evident until my second year when I started having serious emotional problems. I'm well aware of how loneliness and isolation affect the hippocampus, amygdala, and deterioration of gray matter - what's weird is is that I can feel these things happening to myself. Around year five I began to experience psychosis, all the normal symptoms but I didn't think it would be as scary as it was. I feel as though I'm stuck at 30 and the world has moved on, I don't feel as though I have an identity anymore.