When I was a kid I was someone who was nurtured to be extremely caring. Very affectionate and such. Over time though society basically beat it all out of me. My time through school had a rough start. I'm not gonna describe it beyond that.

Moving forward highschool was ok but do to my experiences before that I'd started dissociating and just used a persona most the time. I wasn't ever really feeling anything by that point. The graduating and such I started using substances as a crutch for emotion. If I was under somethings influence at least I could be a bit happy sometimes.

Now I'm here a few years down the line and I've been forced to quit all of that for reasons I shan't explain. My emotions have recently unseeled themselves and it's been awful. I've been struggling with both old desires and a barley functioning psyche (my emotions are basically the same as I left them I hadn't had the opportunity to emotionally mature). So now I'm left here feeling like someone half completed. I didn't think I'd miss being numb but at least it was easier.