as (almost) always when i see my LO i make a post on here lol

this morning when i was walking into work, down an empty hallway, i look down to admire my cute new work shoes.. when i look up, BOOM there she is. As i walked into the building i was literally trying to stop thinking about her. I have this logical algorithm that helps me to stop thinking/daydreaming about her lol

She obviously walked out of a room and was in a good mood. Smiled wide and said “good morning” but i was so shocked to see the person that i was just trying NOT to think about that i kinda gave her a “why tf are you speaking to me” look and gave a low toned “hi”. I felt it might’ve been rude but tbh idc. i don’t want to speak to her and i don’t want to see her but we still have to work together and i will see her around un-fucking-fortunately

In the past week I made a lot of progress in how i’m managing this LE and it’s def working! I told myself that i am a product of my actions and thoughts. I can’t always control my thoughts (and i do still entertain the sexual fantasies when i’m horny) but it’s less frequent!!!!!

I stop myself from engaging in actions that feed into my limerence (which were borderline stalkerish!!) and i document them each time i refrain so i can track my progress. it’s hard to break habits but it feels really good when i am disciplined.

The only trigger i have in addition to randomly seeing my LO…. is my LOs mom

Me and my LO are both surgeons and recently i took care of my LOs mom after having surgery. Now her mom asks me 100s of questions and she loves to cook for me as a favor in return. It’s hard because we had a personal relationship first. Later, it became professional, and now it’s somewhere in between. I had to politely decline when she invited me to come over my LOs house one time, as i referred to in my last post. I’m not trying to ever be in my LOs house again lol that would automatically make me regress