I spent all weekend thinking about seeing my LO at work today…. Then when at work I quickly realized our schedules won’t overlap until Wednesday or even Thursday. I then spent way too much thought and energy composing imaginary texts that I never sent today. I kept wishing he would text me— kept checking my phone and nada. I’m not unattractive, we’re both married and I’m being a fool. We aren’t having an affair, trust me. I just can’t stop thinking about him. He is perfect even though he’s not. Literally during this LE, his wife told him she thinks he has OCPD, which is one of the worst personality disorders where you don’t even know how bad you are. Google it. Anyway I want his attention and validation more than anything in this world. I just want to be with him all the time. Halp.