vent post.

I’m tired to thinking about my LO when i’m with someone else. for the past 14 months i’ve been celibate by choice bc 2021 i was doing too much. last night i go home with this couple to have a 3some and i’m not present at all. i’m definitely good at faking it, and it was good i’d say 6.5/10. they said the had a good time i had a decent time it was okay. but the whole time i’m just thinking of my LO and how i’d rather be having sex with her. even for the girls i have kissed in the past it felt empty unless i was tipsy/drunk. when i’m sober i’m thinking of my LO too. it’s like she had invaded my thoughts colonized my feelings and ruined me enjoying other people. and the sad part is i’ve never had a physical or emotional connection/past with my LO. just a work crush that led to limerence day to day i don’t think of my LO as much and i’m NC and planning to ignore her and not talk to her except for work. but whenever i’m in the mood to get some she’s still the one on my mind the one i desire.