I swear its NOT her fault. Id appreciate it if someone would read my full story. thank you… for context we both are 19, college kids

I am a person who loves to hug people. I hug my best friends a lot, and i hang with my girls just like how girl friendship works, lots of hugs and mindless handholding.

yesterday at a party i was drunk and came out to my best friend. Today we called, eventually it ended in that she told me she accepts me and its okay.. but she has boundaries. Because i like girls, she told me she’s uncomfortable if i hug her very often anymore or just mindless touchings. She told me, Just like how its different for her to be friend with a girl and a guy, she would treat me like one of her guy friends, not one of her girlfriends. I completely understand her point. its okay

but it breaks my heart so bad. i never had someone said this to me before and i just dont know what to do. I ended up crying in our call, which resulted in a small argument. I ended the call by saying “i really like being your friend and i id hate to fight with u. but if ur uncomfortable with our usual friendship, its ok”. Then we hang up. But Oh my god. im so so so sad. if only she didnt know i was a lesbian ALL OF THIS WOULDNT HAPPEN. if only i didnt drink too much yesterday. this is so messy. the worst thing is i already love her so much (as a best friend) and im already attached. idk what to do

the confusing thing is, she didnt told me she doesn’t wanna be friends w me anymore. just that she would treat me differently than her other girlfriends. and that makes me feel like i cant be her BEST friend anymore, maybe just a friend.

What would you do? I cant get over this tbh, the way the call ended was so messy and dramatic but i miss hanging out w her. and no i do not have a crush on her at all, im seeing someone.