After 6 years of almost daily use. I don’t know what I want to get out of this post, just that I keep reading that posting and engaging on this forum has helped others. I hope it will help me too.

The mood swings are unlike anything I’ve experienced before. I am so quick to anger, snapping on folks who cross my boundaries. I hope that when I come out the other side of this, I won’t regret what I’ve said. I think sober me recognizes how much I’ve put up with when I was smoking in order to call myself “chill” or “easygoing.” So I’m quick to enforce my boundaries, but then I regret it, because enforcing boundaries doesn’t feel natural to me.

The food aversion is a nuanced symptom for me. As someone who has dealt with disordered eating before, that voice in my head is grateful to not have an appetite. Is experiencing continued food aversion at week 3 normal? I have seen very different withdrawal timelines posted here.

On the bright side, I have gotten more honest and vulnerable with those closest to me, as well as said yes to more invitations that have helped me meet more new people. I love meeting new people. I feel euphoric for days after I’ve genuinely connected with someone new.

I am having a hard time discerning what is a weed withdrawal symptom and what is potentially long COVID. I got COVID about four weeks ago, and have needed to use my inhaler a lot more than I ever have, both during exercise and due to anxiety (like not being able to catch my breath on a plane). I hardly needed to use it before. COVID was really the impetus of me quitting; my breathing was so affected, it felt ridiculous to impose breathing problems on myself for a drug that has harmed me in so many other ways for years, mostly via lack of motivation, isolation and anxiety.

In my 15 years of smoking weed and 6 years of almost daily use, I have never, ever felt like this after quitting. Before, I would quit and by the next day I felt clearheaded and motivated. I kept smoking because I knew if I stopped one day, the next day would be better. I thought it was that easy. This time, it has not been that easy. I am on prescription medication for my mental health now; they obviously change brain chemistry, but aren’t they they supposed to make decisions like this easier?

Words of encouragement would mean a lot. Please share your stories and any clarity you may have. I hope posting will help like folks here have experienced.