I've been curious about the psychology of men who jerk with other men. When I read the stories on here it turns me on so much even though I am a guy myself. The vivid details some dudes give when describing the atmosphere, or what they felt and saw during their encounters. I used to feel kinda bad about my sexual curiosity in men. But there is something so hot when I see another guy all hard with his stiff in hand just jerking it and seeing rope after rope spew or dribble out.

While I enjoy the mutual play I am confused about something. In my encounters I often find myself giving a handjob or head to the other guy. For some reason I absolutely love when the other guy is massaging me or resting his hand on my head while I do so. Feels euphoric when he starts moaning and breathing making eye contact then looking back up. I still have yet to get used to when they unload in my mouth though. Especially unexpectedly. I'd just suddenly feel my mouth fill up with a really salty bitter taste. Given how little time I have to choose between swallowing or not their cum and my spit just ends up spilling all over their dick and making a small puddle on the floor. My mouth and chin ends up all cummy mixed with spit dripping down.

Usual after all that depending on the guy either I jerk during the head and blow my load around when they do or the other guy offers to jerk me to orgasm. Sometimes using like a Fleshlight or quick shot toy. Some guys also give head back. But after the fun while I am heading home I do feel guilty or slightly grossed out. Not so much for fooling around with another dude but I feel slightly confused and maybe a bit upset at myself for appearing submissive. I think those feelings come from my self consciousness of my appearance. I probably look feminine to some of these guys given my height, having ear piercings, painted nails, and long hair. Probably just an over think but I won't lie during the act I do enjoy seeing them in so much pleasure.