I’m an Emo ManGen on the melancholic part of my emotional wave for the past two weeks now. I just went on a beautiful trip to a national park, but I was with a bunch of other people, some I didn’t know before the trip. I probably should have spent a little more time alone to clear out everyone else’s energies from my form.

Two of my closest, trusted people on this trip both have their Solar Plexus undefined. Spending time with them, I felt my emotional wave getting amplified exponentially, like a horrifying scream echoing louder and louder through a canyon. I felt terrible about this because I had pretty much no way of explaining to them what was going on inside my body. I knew I needed to just physically distance myself from them, but the group’s overall conditioning dictates that this is unusual or rude behavior. This trip culminated in a heated conversation with one of my trusted peeps, where my body was physically shaking, and that person let me know that they were feeling deeply uncomfortable with my body’s response and my tone. I managed to regulate my emotions and calm myself enough so that we could end the conversation on a good note. It was incredibly challenging to quiet the wave, and honestly I was faking it until I made it so that my friend could feel more grounded. Everything is (hopefully) now fine between us. We managed to communicate the rest of the conversation safely. But watching myself get “charged,” as they put it, I felt scared for our relationship, like they were going to see me in a negative light, even though I feel neutrally about my own emotional nature.

I just started my experiment in February, just started plotting a graph of my emotional wave in April (around 2 weeks of joy, 2 weeks melancholy?). Any advice for me in these situations: Being in close contact with undefined solar plexus, for several days uninterrupted? Feeling my melancholic energy amplified by others?

To those with undefined emotional centers, how does it feel to be on the other end of this interaction? If you’d like, please be gentle.