Blacked out and hurt myself on New Year’s :(

Hi gang. Had something shitty happen on new year’s and basically just need some love/positivity.

I went to my friend’s house and after midnight, we played a drinking game that involved taking shots. I was a bit careless with it and ended up totally blacking out.

I woke up the next day with a 1 cm long cut/gash below my chin. It’s in a really weird spot that’s hard for me to see in a mirror or even take a picture of. It’s small enough not to be too serious but still looks kind of intense. As soon as I noticed it I just felt the most profound feelings of guilt, regret, and shame. I feel so embarrassed that this happened and then also felt worried about if it would leave a scar or how healing would go. It’s also scary to just feel out of control and have no idea how it happened or what else I might have done while blackout.

I know I don’t have a drinking problem. This is not normal for me and it happened because I was playing a game that involved shots. Also, I went to the doctor today and they confirmed it’s not a deep/serious enough cut for stitches so I can just let it heal - so I guess that’s reassuring.

I still just feel really down about it, anxious, and not like myself - it was such a shitty way to start the year :( and also doesn’t help that it’s embarrassing to tell people. I’m also stuck with this bandaid on my chin so I feel like I can’t even see anyone right now.

Please hmu with some encouragement and good vibes 🙏🏼 Welcome any meditations or mantras or self talk that helps you get through times like this