Hey all,

Do any of you ever feel that your same sex sexuality is an indulgence, like eating cheesecake like you aren't supposed to have too much of it or else it will ruin your health or it might interfere with other aspects of your life.

I sometimes wonder if why I feel this way?

I don't know if it is a normal feeling or not. It's almost like I view having a male partner like a dessert rather than it being normal. I feel like hookup culture can make me feel conflicted about gay relationships and a long term relationship with a guy (it happens with straights too, but I think it's more intense with gays). I don't know if it's gay xxx that might contribute too.

I don't come from a strictly religious family. I don't think my family is strictly against it. M But I feel like my same sex sexuality doesn't feel always feel healthy. I feel like I'm able to appreciate male beauty, but sometimes I feel like it's an indulgence, not something I'm supposed to have daily or normally. Like I'm only supposed to Allow myself to be gay on the holidays and other times I must watch my own sexuality.

I prefer to be single but am open to a relationship with a male but have this itching feeling that makes me uncomfortable going too far with a guy.

Anyone share these thoughts??