This happened a few years ago, but it solidified my view of myself. I thought I'd share.

It's like, some bottoms/women have a lot of sex because they love sex. That's not me. I do it because I love being slutty. I love being with different partners.

I had bottomed for several guys by this point, and even been in a few threesomes with two tops. It was a weeknight, and I found myself browsing Grindr, as I often did. I sent a few introductory messages to guys nearby.

One replies quick, and agrees to wait on his porch for me. He's walking distance (I lived downtown); he says he wants head, but maybe more. I head over, blow him for a bit, and he asks if I want to fuck. Umm, yes.

So we fuck. I was on PrEP by this point so I offer bare; he accepts. I think he took me in doggie mostly, on his couch (I had been blowing him in his living room). He finishes inside me, and as I get dressed, I check my phone. I have another Grindr message.

I leave and reply. Guy 2 is the same distance from my place as Guy 1, but in roughly the opposite direction. Probably a 20 minute walk. Guy 2 is aggressive and says he wants me now. Hot. Who am I to deny him?

I walk over, feeling so dirty, like everyone driving past knows what I've been up to. I knock on his door, and he's not what I'm expecting. A young, pretty type. He looks at me and chuckles. I hadn't thought about it, but my hair was probably all messed up, and I probably reeked of sex. He said something like "Busy night?" as he let me in.

He sort of points me to his bedroom, and is pawing at my ass and pecs as we make our way there. Clearly, dude wants to tag me.

I start stripping as I approach the bed. He lays me back on the corner of the bed. He starts asking about what I just did... And it was just so hot to tell him. "Yes, I just hooked up with a complete stranger. No, I never got his name."

I quickly got more explicit with it. "He shoved his cock down my throat. He spun my around, and railed my ass bare. He shot his load in my ass, less than 30 minutes ago."

He replies. "I love little sluts like you. Just letting anyone who wants a piece fuck them. So hot." He pushes inside me. "Fuck yes, I can feel his load. You're still open from his cock. I'm gonna fuck more cum into you."

That moment when he pushed inside me, I knew. I felt so dirty, so deliciously whorish. The head of his cock pushing at my hole, it opening up just a bit too easily, me feeling just a bit too moist... I looked up at him, and he looked at me, and we both knew I was a whore.

That sold me on it. It's not about the sex, it's about the sluttiness.