I rewatch my rape video every day. It starts with my rapist using my ski mask as he enters the frame. All I can see is his back, his broad shoulders, his tense posture as he climbs over me and then steals my virginity. Whenever I hear my own scream my pussy aches. I feel my legs wobble and my wetness increasing. It feels like brainwashing. Each time I rewatch it I forget about the fear and pain I was feeling in the moment. Instead I feel wanted, aroused, horny, and I want it again. Each rewatch I rewrite my feelings in my memories.

It hurt when he took my virginity. No, it felt amazing to have my virginity raped away. I was scared of being impregnated. No, it's exciting to take risks with nature. I didn't like being forced to cum. No, forced orgasms are amazing.

There's a wet spot forming on my underwear.

I'm almost 100% certain my roommate raped me. It's hard to believe because he always seemed so... normal. But that gravely voice that told me to settle down sounded just like him. It had to be him. I shiver again thinking about it. He's been acting normal since then. He must know that I know it was him. My body has been aching to be used again every day since then. I know the only cure is to give in to my sick urges.

I watch him come home from work again from the living room couch. I want to be straightforward and ask him, or tell him I know. I walk up to him, blocking his path to his bedroom. He stares at me, " What? What do you want?"

I get down on my knees in front of him, keeping eye contact, and I slowly reach forward to rub the bulge in his pants. I feel his cock twitch under my touch. I'm getting wetter already.

"I know what you did to me..." My voice comes out shakier than I wanted. I wanted to sound sexy but it came out sounding scared. I see my roommate's expression twist into a grin. He drops his bag on the floor and quickly pulls his dick out of his pants. "I knew you liked it, slut. Come here."

He doesn't give me a chance to obey, grabbing a fist full of my hair and pulling me forward, forcing his cock into my mouth. I press my hands to his thighs and suck his cock like it's the best thing I've ever tasted. I feel out of control, like my hormones have switch my body onto autopilot with the sole mission of being ravaged again. My roommate keeps a strong grip on my head as he face fucks me mercilessly. I struggle to breathe as his cock grows thicker, harder, longer inside my mouth until it's plunging down my throat. I feel my saliva dribbling down my neck. I feel like I'm gonna pass out until he finally pulls his cock out of my mouth with a satisfied groan. I see clearly now how thick my roommate's cock is and all I can think is that I want it inside me.

As if he read my mind, he grabs me by the arm and drags me to his bedroom. It takes him barely any time to throw me face down on the bed and pull my shorts and underwear down. In the next second his hands snake up my shirt to latch onto my breasts and he's forcing his cock inside me from behind. I can't help but moan. My head is spinning from the sensations and my own internal conflict. Is he raping me again? Did I ask for it by coming onto him? My thoughts are quickly shut off as his cock reaches deeper inside me.

"That's it, whore. You like that? This is what you were made for!"

I moan out a slutty "Yeah!" I do like it. I want it. Want more of it. His hands squeezing my chest and his hips slamming against me as he fucks me feels incredible. Being used feels amazing. Before I know it I'm cumming on his cock. I'm moaning and squealing as he twists my nipples between his fingers and holds his cock deep inside me as my body convulses in orgasm. I'm losing my mind. His own breathing is getting rougher. I wonder if he's gonna cum inside me again.

He grabs my hips and thrusts into me like a madman. I have to cover my mouth to muffle my screams before the neighbors call the cops on us. The fear starts creeping in again with each second of him taking me harder and faster. My pussy hurts. My insides hurt and I can't stop screaming into the matress in pain. He slams into me deep one last time before breeding me again. My mind starts racing to remember when my last period was as I feel his cock twitching, pumping thick streams of cum into me. He stays inside me for a long time, breathing hard over me, letting his cum settle in my womb. I start feeling awkward, I want to get away and clean up and take a morning after pill like last time.

He slaps my ass hard when I try to move away.

"Where do you think you're going, bitch?"

I'm speechless. I don't know what to say and if I did I'd be too scared to say it. He lays down over me, groping my body.

"You're gonna stay right here until I'm ready to go again. You don't get to be anything but a toy until I'm satisfied."

But I don't want to be a toy! I feel my senses returning to me. What was I thinking letting this happen? My roommate isn't very happy when I try to get away again. But a few hard slaps across my face and making me cry is enough to get his dick fully hard again. He growls in my ear, "Why the fuck are you crying? This is what you wanted, bitch." I shakily spread my legs for him. Yes, this is what I wanted.