I don't know; I didn't leave years ago. I constantly feel betrayed by myself and irresponsibly continue the relationship that generated a beautiful kid. Now, I try to keep the path to make my way out with my daughter or provide a safe environment for us around my partner.

I see pictures of my young self and feel deeply sad. But also, seeing my daughter gives me the strength to take it in daily.

Why I didn't love myself enough to don't let me tolerate all the red flags and run away (I confess that I feel fear more than often back in the day).

I had been in anxiety treatment for about 3 years and 1 year back plus therapy which have help me not only start seeing a lot of things that should not be normal but also to stand up for myself.

Help

I'll post in parts.

The background is lengthy.

I have been married for seven years and dated for six more. We have a 3-year-old daughter. About five years ago, things started to go south when my partner rejoined college for a higher degree.