As I scroll through my instagram feed for the umteenth time today I scroll past a video posted by DVDASA. I watch it and of course I'm left confused, and with no clues as to what the fuck is going on in that short 15 second clip I look towards the comments and find my answer. "Rip, DVDASA", "Thank God for us", "Thanks Choey for all the laughs" are just a few comments as well as the one that gave me closure. "Take a look at the website" one comment read. I knew what was imminent...and I was ready.

I head over to my computer, pound the keys D-V-D-A-S-A-DOT-C-O-M and I am hit with an image of two disgusting Asian male bodies and a splash of green. A green of envy. As I begin to read the following text an interesting feeling comes over me. I feel a tension loosen. I feel a slight load lifted. I feel my breath a little deeper. A closure. And a beautiful closure it was. I finish reading the vulgar and adolescent wall of text (something a 13 year old AZN with strict ugly Asian parents that smell like old soup and an ugly Asian snaggletooth girlfriend would find endearing an funny) and I am left with a smile. A genuine and heartfelt smile.

For a year of listening to the show I have seen myself grow. I have been taken the advice of an insanely rich and insanely lucky, shit korean artist and found myself a little more matured since the beginning. I have learned so many things while listening to the ramblings of grown adults who have more money than they can handle. The team has taught me many things. It has taught me to dream big and follow my instincts. Although these instincts may lead me to life long depression, a loss of friends, and even a close hair away from rape, they may also lead me to wealth, inner peace, and honesty. The show has taught me that friends and family are invaluable. Only my friends and family will keep me grounded and call me out on my emo bullshit. Only my friends and family will be there once my true self is revealed and they will be there to help pick up the pieces of my enormous ego that was shattered from their own doings. The show has also helped me professionally. It has taught me that the world of art and design is a complete fucking sham and a large marketing scheme of self harm. People will only buy your art if your a complete fucking moron who's only inspiration is some ounce of scandal. It has also demonstrated that people will only buy your art if you give them every piece of yourself until their is nothing left but the lie you aim to be. But above all else the show has taught me something that I believe no one else could ever teach me. Honesty. Honesty was portrayed in this show so beautifully. The true feelings of man being betrayed when his best friend eats his chips was shown with such genuineness and such heartfelt it is hard to go unnoticed. The speakings of a man with such incredible security that he is able to tell an audience of thousands his panty masturbation procedures is almost the epitome of the word. The honest interpretation of one brother outshining the other, or one womans quest for satiability was so intriguing as well as endearing. The show has shown me that hard boiled true honesty is the worst thing for any human being to do. I have taken away the notion to NEVER show ANY ounce of true honesty to ANYONE I EVER meet. Nothing but heartache, loss, and stress will come of any sort of true self being revealed. Even for the sake of art some things need to remain in the mind for the gears to keep turning. Some of the stories Choe has told in the name of honesty have given him a lifelong list of troubles to come. And for that I thank you Choe. I have learned from your feeble mistakes. And I truly believe this lesson, which is not small in any sense, is one of the greatest lessons I have ever learned. "Do I look fat in this dress?" "Absolutely not, honey" is how I will respond one hundred percent of the time because of the learnings I have taken away. You will never catch me telling anyone about my sexual frustrations of hermaphrodites or homosexuality. I will never speak of how I am distraught with the amount of activities I participate in solely because I have too much money. You see, I am a much smarter man now because of this show. I have seen the mistakes made from a rich fool and I am more weathered and broken in because of this.

The closure of this show with letter from Choe was exactly what I needed to move on and complete my transformation. I needed an exact point in time to tell me to the close one door behind me so that I can open this new one in front of me. In all seriousness, I love everyone who made this show possible you have honestly gotten me through one of the darkest time of my life. I love you Asa for being a wonderful woman who believes in her role on this planet and you have given me hope in women everywhere. I love you Critter for making me see the light in all things good or bad. I love you Val for making me understand that work is only work and that we just need to do it. I love you Money Mark for all your wisdom and allowing me to fully get in touch with my inner peace. I love you Bobby "True Star" "Trivia" Namba for helping me understand the true value of family, friendship, and above all else, privacy. And most of all I love you Choe for sacrificing yourself, your wealth, your health, your sanity, just to let some dumb chink like me with no money, no skills, no life, learn from you and grow and not ask anything of me. You are really an inspiration to me and many others, and although your fans may not show appreciation of it that much we truly are grateful for what you have done for us and will support you in any dumb ass endeavor you set out to conquer. I said it before and I'll say it again "Thanks Dad".

Thank you all. Sincerely, A victim.