I am 20 and I have had one mediorce hookup where I realized my love for shibari. A few days ago I met a guy that I am now dating and i couldn't be happier. It seems like we have the same kinks and he is always honest and communicative. I have never had an IRL dom/sub relationship like that, let alone online ones. I love how he lets me take the lead but will always advocate for himself when he needs to.
I always plan the scenes either a few days or the night before a scene and check with him to make sure that it's okay and its something he likes. I also love how hes so nonjudgemental too. The way he he will whine and beg for more under my fingertips and nails is addicting and how he says that he loves me and repeats "thank you sir/master" is so heartwarming. I love how he never hesitates to call yellow or orange or tell me that he needs water. I love how during aftercare he will say that he feels safe and he thanks me. I will never ever get tired of that.
i often feel not confident and ??shame?? about my appearance. but when my puppy looks at me like the sexiest person in the world it makes me feel more confident than ever. I am autistic so a lot of times i need explicit communication. He is also very understanding of my needs bc of my autism
being in an irl dynamic is more than i could have ever imagined. its so fufilling to be able to give like i do and have someone put that trust in me