A tired demotivated doctor here.

I'm losing motivation in this whole goal of pursing my desired speciality in the UK with everything that is going on and seeing more negative posts about the training programmes here. Sometimes I wonder why don't I just screw training and go do aesthetics right after FY2 for a better lifestyle and money as I've seen some doctors only now do that and seem successful af. The specialty I really like is also not a cushy lifestyle one either but I enjoy it a lot. Internal conflict between life choices lol. I have to admit, I wonder if it's also my stupid ego that wants to CCT and be a consultant too (and a safety stable job in case I want to move abroad)which I don't know if that is common/normal to feel this way...?

Obviously I know everyone's reasons and priorities are different but I guess it's just nice to hear some motivating/positive things about going through all these hardships for CCT, and also to sway me away from doing aesthetics only lol.

What are your reasons and motivation for pursuing your dream specialities when there are other pathways for you like aesthetics that can lead to a better work life balance, money, and be your own boss? What keeps you going with getting into training and enduring the training and all the shit that comes with the training (service provision, nights, low pay you name it)? Why aren't more doctors go down the aesthetics route ?

Edit- it warms my heart to see many comments here discussing medicine in such a positive light and some reasons that are heartfelt. I have to say, it has helped me mentally and gave me some optimism with choosing this career. Thank you.