Hello, Doctor [Your Surname Here]. Here's a bit about me, so you can decide if you want to take me on as a patient. As you will probably see, my subconscious is both a treasure trove for you to dig into and fertile ground in which to plant powerful seeds.

In a Nutshell Handsome, bearded, cis male empath, undergoing a spiritual awakening. Suggestible, subconsciously exploratory, 2 decades of experience as a subject. Deeply intelligent, magnetic, and hypnotic myself, with a depth to my eyes that frightens some. Struggling with: spiritual awakening/"ascension" symptoms, combined with ADHD, in a 9-5 office job.

Would like help with: -using a shadowy sexual attraction to my hypnotherapist to leverage change -to be sexually exploited by my hypnotherapist in ways that turn them on deeply - to the point where I can feel their deep arousal dripping from the words in their scripts - and perhaps their sexually predatory intentions are the last thing of which I'm aware before I go under completely -altering where I seek dopamine hits, -integrating higher self into waking reality, -Being guided to my highest life purpose (especially by my inner child) -boosting intuition -exploring my sexuality and becoming sexually uninhibited -unlocking and upgrading clair (psychic) senses -maximizing the strengths of my shadow self (especially learning how to fold an intense animal magnetism into my purpose) -past life remembrance -becoming an uncarved block or empty cup, removing unnecessary thought and rubbish from my mind -bringing in ancestral skills and knowledge -connecting more deeply with Spirit and my spirit guides

Ideally You Are: -wanting to genuinely help a patient while playing out your own psycho-sexual fantasies -willing to explore sexual desire through control and exploitation of a patient (or a patient's willingness to be taken advantage of) -a little turned on by the taboo I present, as well as having your own twist to add (since you've thought about it or done it before, perhaps multiple times) -beautiful, intelligent, and/or magnetic/hypnotic (not just in terms of your profession, but in terms of your aura). I am such putty in a beautiful, intelligent woman's hands. -creative in how you'd want the psycho-sexual aspects of this to play out. (I don't want to know the details - would rather have to discover misplaced feelings and bodily fluids as it unfolds) -experienced with ADHD and/or working with other patients spouting the Jungian/spiritual buzzwords I have used in this post -living in Denver (or in Colorado), but online/anywhere is great, too. Ideally you also take my insurance, so they can subsidize our regular, taboo play :P

My Hypnosis History I saw a stage hypnotist by chance as a kid and was absolutely fascinated. I read all the books the library had and showed my family and friends that the magic was real. I forgot about this for years, until experiencing anxiety and depression upon young adulthood. The only therapist I have ever seen was a hypnotherapist, when I was around age 18, and I felt like a completely different person after I did. After seeing this brilliant, middle-aged woman ONE time in person, I felt lighter, happier, like a knot untied. And it stayed that way. But I also felt a lingering, sexual attraction to my hypnotherapist. And it stayed that way, too.

I don't think this was a result of anything she layered into the script or said to me while I was under in the barely lit therapy room, but I have no way of knowing. I have this memory that I have since told myself was not real, of leaving the office and realizing my braided belt was fastened very haphazardly, like someone had done it in reverse or at an angle. And I remember feeling like I needed to pee and like my boxers were tight/bunched around my manhood (what was, up until recently, my boyhood...) - a distinct feeling like I needed to adjust the position of my genitals. I was definitely healthier, happier, and stronger, and I listened to the CDs she made me every night for years.

Fast forward to today. I am 30, single, living alone, and I feel that therapy could help me again as I go through different challenges than I have faced in the past. I feel I have overcome anxiety and depression for good - well and truly shaken those patterns/habits of thought and built systems and practices to avoid slipping back into those unproductive grooves. I practiced mindfulness, meditation, and micro-dose psilocybin (with the occasional macrodose). I currently need help becoming the best version of myself - becoming limitless as an adult - not in spite of my idiosyncrasies but as a result of leveraging them. And as I do so, I would like to explore a situation with sexual dynamics that no ordinary person would want because they can't even imagine it; to play a game that's never been played with rules I don't consciously know.

I'm sure, out there somewhere, there is a fiercely intelligent and beautiful woman eager to be the co-creator of a completely new game.