Yup, I got the trifecta of health issues. Along with suffering from depression and anxiety almost most of my life, I also learned in Feb that I have an advance chronic illness with no cure and daily pain. I struggle daily due to my illness on top of depression. Have seen 3 therapist and recently finished my first e-CBT program to learn that my core beliefs are I am broken/different. Pretty much my entire life I have struggle with with shit. I am 38 years old. I have what everyone say you should have.. a house, a car, an education, a pet, and a fiancee and all it takes is one bad day to spiral again...

Life is too unbearable that I drink, or smoke weed or do anything to feel something else.. even though I know its bad and part of my fucking cycle.. I am self destructive because of my fucking core beliefs...

I have relationship problems ( a Deadbedroom) and some days I really don't know why I continue to stick it out...

How does anyone cope with the fucking world we live in today? It's so fucked up... countries all over the world are still ass backwards.... people are so selfish and tribal.. people are manipulated due to lack of information or critical thinking skills... people think the climate is not fucked even though we past the point of no return a few years ago,but just like us stupid humans to move the goal post further.. like that will solve anything. The world will burn,the poor will die the rich will realize shit when its too late and eventually everything will be chaos again... fuck life!

Sorry for errors, broken thoughts, or other shit.. I am broken afterall