I already feel as if I have zero worth and that the world would be better of without me but every day they just make it even worse and I’m only 16.

I found out I was exposed to covid a few days ago and I’m supposed to be going back to school in a few days. I was already really stressed out as my teachers don’t bother to post anything good online and the quality is terrible compared to in person. I was going to get a rapid test on Monday and that would have sufficed for me to go back to school.

But now, I can’t afford it and I have to go the whole 2 weeks of quarantine. My grades are going to plummet if this happens and I just had a panic attack and I was crying a lot. I know my mom felt bad about it and she was stressed but being the narcissist she is, she decided to turn it back onto herself.

Keep in mind, I wasn’t upset with her, I was just trying to figure out how I was going to keep my grades up.

But she asked me why I was crying and I was honest, just telling her that my teachers don’t post online and it’s going to be really hard and she started screaming at me. Telling me that I should get over myself and stop being a baby.

But then, to my dismay, I said that I was going to start getting failing grades before I even started and that set her off, and she screamed at the top of her lungs “oh my god”, “stop being so fucking dramatic”, “come here so I can hit you”. She then told me she couldn’t stand to be in a house with me anymore and got her keys and left. My dad came in and screamed at me to go to my room and don’t come out. So now, I’m sitting under my blanket terrified I’m going to be beaten and crying

I have no idea what to do anymore. I feel like at this point I should just make them happy and end it, because I’m obviously a huge burden on them