I’m in year 9 at school and I look back into my year 7 year book and realise that I got three different medals in one year, now this shouldn’t be a bad thing for most people but I didn’t deserve a single one of them and I have always though of them as Pity medals, The first medal I got was in food tech, now I was the fucking worst at food tech, I burnt things, messed up meals but the thing is I could picked on in that class, one time in the class we were doing a cooking assessment and we had a limited amount of supplies for people to use, anytime I needed it the assholes gave it to their mates and not give it to me which set me off so much that I had a mental breakdown and the teacher calmed me and talked to the assholes now I’m not a guy that handles situations but at the end of the week me and the kid that was teasing me went to the office and my year coordinator was there to talk to both of us and the kid got a detention and then we don’t have a great relationship now, but the thing is I had a great food tech partner who is a great student and true friend, and he was always helping me with some foods that I had trouble with and he is in general amazing at Different types of techs, but the thing is he was the perfect candidate for this award and he didn’t get it and it just pisses me off that I got this award for Pity award and it’s not like this award was for one class the whole grade was able to achieve this award, It might not seem that this is a pity award but my two homeroom teachers at the time were both food tech teachers and they helped me through these situations, so it can’t be a coincidence and I got other awards that year as well but I just know that I didn’t push myself in anyway to get those awards, Every time I think about those awards a I physically cringe and my whole body quivers,If you’ve made it to the end thank you for your time