I just got out of bed because I was crying so hard I didn't want to wake my wife. I am letting a small failure from earlier today trigger me. I was changing the rear brake pads and rotors on my car, and I kept running into problem after problem. A stuck bolt here, a stuck bolt there. One of the rotors was stuck and I couldn't get it off. A one hour project took me 4 hours to complete and I didn't even do it right. I had to resort to putting fresh brake pads on a worn rotor, which should never be done. And because I was working on this for so long, I forced my wife to interrupt her work to feed herself and our daughter, after I'd originally promised to make dinner. When I explained what happened with my car and why it took so long, she wouldn't even look up from her computer at me, although she said she's not upset. I got into bed and tried to reach for her hand because I just felt so alone and needed to feel close to her, and she recoiled because my hand accidentally touched her stomach. I just burst into tears. I almost cried louder than the noise my CPAP makes. I just decided to leave the bedroom and give my wife some peace.

REALLY need someone to talk to.