So I’ve been depressed around 14 years and I’ve been off and on meds but I don’t want to have to rely on them. I’ve had suicidal thoughts the entire time and a long time ago made an attempt and spend some time in a mental hospital, I’m never going to do it and even when the thoughts get really bad I know that I won’t. I’m starting therapy in about 6 days, I’ve done it before but had to stop because of scheduling issues and the second time the guy was just trying to get me to go to the bar and help him pick up girls so I gave up after that but I’ve grown and know I need help working through my issues so I’m trying again with a new head. I don’t like to take meds because they mess with my head, is there anything else I can be doing?