Depression hit me full force again and even breathing seems to take so much effort. I just can’t do this anymore, I can’t take all this emotional pain and keep going. I’m angry and sad and exhausted all the time. I think about suicide daily, going as far as researching methods again and my brain just supplies me with reasons why this is such a good decision. I don’t see a future when I’m happy or at least not in pain, in fact I only see more pain coming and I have no idea how I can possibly handle this anymore.

I want to find an end to this pain, but I just don’t know how. I have no person in my corner to help me fight and I can’t take it. It’s been so much for so long…