The needle in the haystack is missing in my life. I I have looked. I have searched. I have tried every On Line Dating (OLD) that I thought I could find.

I think I’m scared. I make decisions that keep me separate and safe. I feel a paralysis about my relationships despite having quality friends, and good people in my life.

If I’m never ready for romance, I hope I’m prepared for more fun than I have had in this experiential life. I fulfill many of my needs through instant gratification, and it’s sad. I try so hard to for wholesomeness, purpose, and meaningful connection.

I haven’t found it. I’m ready for the ‘peanut gallery’ to tell me what to do, dismiss me, or just call me out on my s***. I hope someone is listening. I hope someone will care about me. I want to feel the joy of making a positive and romantic experience with someone.