27 M. I've only had one girlfriend my entire life, she broke up with me last December and I still can't get over it. I have no friends and never had any my entire life. I do have a roommate but he's an even bigger loser than me. I've lived my entire life in a rural area an hour away from the nearest big town. I try going out whenever I can but I have no luck meeting anyone. I swear I think I'm just a pair of empty shoes to everyone else. I genuinely have no clue what people my age talk about, how they meet, socialize, its all so foreign to me. I'm not great looking by any means but I'm also not horrifically ugly. Online dating is completely useless. I pour so much money into tinder and bumble and never get any worthwhile matches. All I want is a regular life like everyone else. My youth has been a total waste and the existential dread is killing me. Today marks the fourth day in a row I haven't said a word to anyone and the only time I've smiled this year is faking it for profile pics. I'm becoming so detached from society and culture its really depressing me. I just want to be six feet in the ground.