Hey, so I (19m) don't wanna go on too long or get pitiful writing this, just wanted to ask if this is possible or if I should give up.

I'm a dude, and i live on the coast in the south, but I don't really like a lot of the most prominent people here. I don't dislike them or hate them, they just aren't really my type, but that's the problem.

I'm generally a guy that is kind of shy at times, and I kind of want to have a partner that is more dominant or forward with their intentions with me, and that usually ends up being people older than me.

I just worry that the kind of person I like straight up just doesn't exist, and if they did they wouldn't like me, and I don't know what to do.

I'm trying to better myself every day, learning how to cook better, I'm going to the gym 4 days a week, and I don't really think I look bad.

I just feel like the kind of person I like has either already left my life, because I had a crush on them but they just ended up with someone else, or they straight up just aren't real. I don't consider it even possible for someone to desire me, but feeling desired is all everything I want.

I don't know what to do, I feel stupid writing this