I've been depressed for a couple years now, I go to therapy and I'm trying to be better with my self esteem and anxiety but sometimes I spiral into thinking constantly about something I wish I had. For example, a girlfriend, or a job position that I've been working so hard for, while others are getting it right away with no effort. I see a happy couple and I get depressed because I wish I had what they have. I think it might be jealousy and its ruining me. I constantly tell myself that no one will like me once they get to know me so I never interact with any girls which is the first step to get my wish, even though they've shown interest in me first. They want someone who actually has a life, I just go to work, go to uni, study, workout, then go home and be depressed... thats it and I wish it was different, but I've got no motivation.

How do others do it? How do others navigate this dating stuff so successfully. Its like I cant keep to myself and its so frustrating. I want to learn how to focus on myself but I never see any point.