I used to be a freelance photographer for years before I went in to film. During this time I was really interested in boudoir, nudes and erotic photography. At that time Craigslist was huge and I posted a few ads to see if there were any candidates interested in modeling for me. I got a few responses and booked three shoots. All were unpaid and the models would get all the photo to use in their portfolio. I was new at this and they were just starting off as well.

The first model who I shot with was amazing. She arrived with her husband but he did not come up to my apartment, just stayed outside in his car. I was living in NYC at this time. She took my direction well and we did a mixture of lingerie classic nudes and some erotic content. When I mean erotic, I would pose my hand on her or be touching her in places for the shots. She was very comfortable with all this and we discussed it before hand.

While we were shooting a particular shot where she was straddling me (I had pants on) she asked me if I wanted to take my pants off and go a little edgier. I was not complaining, but I did confess to her that I am a bit turned on and that might show through my underwear. She smiled and unbuckled me and pulled both my pants and underwear down. She then crawled up to me and put me in her mouth. I did not expect this, I kept taking photos and she was enjoying this.

In the moment I was completely taken and did not feel bad for her husband, I feel like a piece of shit for not feeling bad. I also did not stop her, we went all the way and I did ask her if her husband knows about this - maybe they had an arrangement. She said he does not know. She clearly has done this before. Ever since this experience I have a particular fetish to cheating women. It is such a messed up thing to even think about. I was quite young when this happened (23) and it stuck with me.