For context, I am a trans woman, and this is not my burner account, so I'm sure I'll delete it... But I'm in a situation financially where I can't be picky with where my money is coming from..

I would describe mysyas moderately reserved, and not as open with my sexuality as most women maybe are these days. I'd Never consider doing OF, not that I'm saying there's something wrong with it.

And as of today, I have been looking for new employment for a Very Long Time..

I have never even considered going back to this job until recently, because I'm clearly desperate, and well well well.. he seems very open about the prospect .

I don't know if he's changed, or less attracted to me now as I have gained weight and changed my style. Also his wife seems to be working there now and it's a small store. But I did see him with his kid and wife once before years ago when I worked there, and she didn't. And that didn't seem to discourage him from doing anything he was doing to me..

Anyways.. what he used to do is "randomly", and "accidentally" touch my ass... Every Single Day I worked there... I worked there no longer than 2 weeks before I left for unrelated reasons. I never confronted him for this, I never even looked him in the face as he did it.. I just kept working. Gaslighting myself into believing I was genuinely making it all up in my head..

Back then I figured, "who would want a trans girl!??".. something I'd heard heteronormative people say often . . So I just assumed they must be right.

Once I saw him talking with another male coworker. I was off to the side working, and they were standing side by side, when suddenly the other male coworker starts playing a song loudly on a Bluetooth speaker that very blatantly says "I can tell rather that ass is real, or fake!" Bonus points if you know whatever song that is, but I was a bit baffled.

I kept working, looking straight ahead, until seconds later I had to lean over to pick something up.. and what do you know.. I hear very loud foot steps, rushing behind me.. I quickly stand up straight.. like whiplash quick.. continue to look forward and do my work. And everyone just continues about their day like nothing had happened.

When I saw him recently, for the first time in years, his wife and coworkers were nearby, and me with all my changes, no longer the skinny mini, hyper feminine, modelesque girl he'd once knew.. he didn't even shake my hand. He gave me a fist bump.. asked me how I've been.. and the overall vibe was very buddy buddy.. nothing negative, but far from sexual.

I figured to myself I must no longer be his type.. and that's fine. Even though his wife is definitely chubby as well.

But yada yada.. anyways.. I do think this will be hard to explain to my future boyfriend! If I ever find one.. placing myself Back in this situation where it Could happen again.. it could not.. and for money!?

Do you know what that makes me sound like??

Starts with a P.. ends with titute!

I don't even know anymore.. just saying.. sorry that it's long!