So, for the past couple of years I’ve been contemplating what people call bottoming I guess? Especially for pretty men with.. big ones.. and sex with my wife is amazing.. but I keep.. breaking down and using her toys on myself. I often hide the one I bought and use it on myself and I have unbearable shaking orgasms on it.

I feel scared honestly that I might really love and crave it and my wife isn’t into sharing me and it’s a deadly subject.

I live on the Air Force academy and I want someone pretty and.. big to take my virginity.. I’m super nervous and I’m super anxious to have a real orgasm by a real man that’s bigger than me.

Ugh maybe this should be an off my chest post subreddit.. but I was hoping someone could ease me into accepting what my body wants.. dm me.

Also.. my wife won’t be home most of the time for work and it’s perfect for me to try it. Like most of the week she’s gone and I’m home by 4:30 or 5 pm