I only did about a full g but dude waking up from the night before, idk I feel extremely depressed. I had also tried K for the first time last night and decided to see what Calvin Klein is all about so I have it a try, loved it, ended up doing wayy too much coke, now I’m awake and okay(I thought I was gonna sieze out or something, idk) but I feel SUPER depressed. Like the depression is God fucking awful, it’s like all I can think about is all the negative shit in my life rn and that’s all my brain can focus on. I think maybe it’s because deep down I know what I was doing was wrong and shouldn’t have punished my body like that, (I was 6 months clean, I know, that’s not really saying much compared to others) and it’s like dude, I wanna get better and I wanna quit doing drugs all together for good, but me being around certain people doesn’t help(especially since one of those ppl is my roommate) and I don’t have a vehicle(that’s a long story in itself) so I can’t just dip outta my house anytime I want. It sucks. I’m sorry to rant but dude my mind is being bombarded with negativity rn and I don’t know how to get it to stop, I’ve tried smoking some weed but it’s not helping. I wish I had someone to talk to sometimes, can’t really afford therapy or rehab where I’m at