When I start to see someone I probably bring up my disgust for children and never wanting them within the first week or so of seeing them. This guy I’ve known for 3 years, finally asked me out and I said yes. I can’t even tell you how much I liked him. And super fast too.

But the other day we had a conversation about monogamy and he said he wasn’t sure he was ready even though we had discussed heading that way. I was super upset and told him I’m not gonna continue to see someone if it’s not heading towards a relationship and he said he wanted to talk in person. I was super upset and hardly slept that night and apparently he didn’t either. So when I grieve, I grieve pretty hard just to get over a situation faster. I cried so fucking much. I had really enjoyed spending time with him.

Well today I go over to his place to talk. Not to work things out but to see wtf happened? This motherfucker tells me he’s been thinking about his life more and really does want kids one day and wouldn’t want to force me to have them. Dude…I’ve seen the posts on here of people changing their minds and switching it up when they are in serious relationships and saying they want children. I never thought that would happen to me.

Like I’m not necessarily upset it was him that did that to me..more just the very uncomfortable feeling of the fact that I’m so easy to let go over A baby that doesn’t even exist or might never happen. The feeling is so crazy to me and I have no idea if I want to cry, be angry or laugh about the whole thing. Like WHAT THE FUCK?????

Also it’s pretty fucked up to never say you want kids but continue a romantic relationship with someone who doesn’t want them. Maybe if you can’t be an adult and communicate right away that you do want kids when someone states they don’t…you shouldn’t have them?