Been married 19 years, the last several have been difficult at best. Always had an attraction to some guys and cocks in general. Messed around with guys a bit when I was a kid but ended up exclusively with girls from 14 YO until late 2020. Things were opening back up after covid and I was needing a change I guess. Maybe it was the lack of interaction with people don't know for sure but I took the plunge. Downloaded grinder and started chatting. Didn't take long after I made the decision to do it to set up a meet. Took the drive and met him, initially it was just going to be some mutual JO and play time. Damn he was so fucking hot, early 20's slim and sexy twink. I've realized that's my weakness for sure. I'de probably do about anything for some playtime with a twink. Started off with touching and rubbing each other's cocks, did some frotting and then jerking each other off. My nervousness was an issue initially so he started licking my balls and shaft and rubbing my cock all over his face. That did the trick so he jerked me off till I nutted. I was licking his stomach and balls and couldn't take it no more, asked if I could suck his cock and he said yes. Immediately went down on that dick without a second thought. Didn't take long and he was ready to blow his load. I chickened out though and he shot his load on my chest instead of me swallowing. I still regret that, should have taken that cum in the mouth and savored it.