Intro:

A few months ago I began online correspondence with a lady known simply as Goddess. We talked for many months on and off about her subs, about BDSM, and how one can combine kink with every day life. Around 2 weeks ago Goddess asked me to guess something about her one of her subs, when I guessed wrong she ordered me to spank myself 20 times in the ass.

Things quickly feel into place. Goddess will help train me train myself and prepare me for a in person Domme. Rules were established such as:

Rule 1. I must always address Goddess as Goddess or Mistress(I chose Goddess).

Rule 2. I have given my pleasure and pain to Goddess to control, and have the authority to stop Goddess at any time.

Rule 3. Once a day I will to engage kiss the boot(I act this out as Goddess is far away) and say hello my glorious Mistress or Goddess.

Rule 4. In conversation with goddess I am never allowed to refer to myself as me or I, I must use degrading names such as; Piss Slut, Anal Whore, It, and I personally like Your Slave.

Other rules include an exercise routine every other day, I must train my ass in the shower every day, using my hands or toys, After every shower I must write Goddess on my cock to remind myself who owns it.

About me:

I am an 18 year old guy from a small city in Ontario Canada, in late August I move to an apartment in Toronto. I am so exited to be able to fully explore kinky and discover who I truly am in biggest city in Canada. When I finally move out Goddess has big plans for me, new rules, new goals, new routines. I am very exited.

Submission:

My submission first began with simple things, being made to take cold showers, to finger and stretch my ass in the shower, things like having to ask permission to go to the toilet, and no cumming for seven days, I failed on day 3. I had been edging for 3 days strait(big mistake), I was so horny and while edging I accidentally went over the edge. Goddess wanted me to punish myself by putting a big sock in my mouth for 1 hour without gagging, this was impossible due to the size of the sock, so I began to barter. We had been talking about piss and piss torture all day, Goddess said she would allow me to hold a smaller sock in my mouth for 2 hours if it was covered in piss. I obliged Goddess. This had always been something I wanted to try but never got the chance until then, because I had been drinking so much water under goddesses instructions my piss was mostly clear, however I still was able to taste the bitter piss taste. I still felt incredibly bad for disappointing Goddess, I had not planned to till I moved out but I went to Spencer's and bough two toys a butt plug and some anal beads. After many hours of waiting, we were ready for the big session, no lube. Just the toys and my own strength. I showered a second time that day and cleaned my ass, the outside and the inside. As per Goddess orders I put the plug in a cup of ice water and wait for it to melt. Then we were ready to go, goddess ordered that I begin with the beads. The beads have 7 beads going from smallest to biggest in the middle then smallest again(see image in profile). Goddess told me to kiss the first bead then put it inside. I put the first bead in my mouth. Goddess told me "you idiot fucking anal whore, I meant your ass". I got down into a squat and with a lot of difficulty I managed to get the first bead inside my ass. The beads were hanging there, goddess told me to put the rest in, I got all they way up to 4, the biggest one. It felt so good to have stuff inside my ass stretching it. Bead 4 was just too big, I was moaning in pleasure and groaning in pain. I keeled over so I was on my knees with my head against the floor and forced it in. My mouth fell agape as moaned loudly and my eyes rolled back in ecstasy, it felt amazing, so stretched and so full. Goddess reacted "oh is that good, do you feel good"? I nodded and moaned, I tried to push the rest in, there were so many beads stuffed into my ass I could not fit them in, I wailed in pain, they just would not go in, my ass was full, every time I pushed the beads would go against my prostate and I would feel like all my bowls would just drop out but it felt so good. I leaned over and forced the final 2 beads in wailing in pain, it hurt but felt so so good, so full, pushing up against my prostate, I was so hard. I jumped up and slammed my ass on the chair to stop them from coming out. My face showed pain but it felt good, I was exhaling extremely loudly, goddess told me "well then stop pretty anal whore" I was frozen on the chair, goddess ordered "pull them out" I got back of the chair on all fours and pulled them out, it was the most wonderful feeling. My eyes went wide and I moaned loudly. It felt amazing as I took them out I could see the last 2 beads were dry I don't think they made it in all the way, the others were all covered in water or something. I put them in the bag, goddess asked me how my as felt and i said it felt amazing. Goddess continued "My next instruction is very simple plug your ass up" I obliged and picked the plug. Letting it drip into the cup of ice water. The plug is metal bring pink and a purple crystal on the back, 3.3 inches in length(see image in profile). I got in a squat again and lined it up with my hole anticipating a lot of pain. I tied to put it in but I dropped it, I picked it up an and lined it up better, like magic it just slid in. It felt so good. I was surprised by how good it felt. No pain at all it just went right in it felt so nice, I was moving it around standing walking kneeling feeling it shift inside me. I was so confused I thought with no lube it would be excruciatingly painful and with the ice too, goddess explained how the ice made it smaller and it would expand a little as it warmed up, and that I should sleep with it in and keep it in until she tells me otherwise. I remembered once I had the plug in I needed to pledge my self to goddess. I got on all fours over the boot goddess made me use as an effigy of her. Holding the boot as stuck my ass and plug into the air, I pledged; "I, Piss Whore Anal Slut, pledge myself to your service, I give you my Glorious Goddess control over my body my mind and soul. I will do everything in my power to serve you as your slave in any capacity you desire. I am yours until your need for me ends or you sell me or give me to someone else. I am the luckiest slave in the world to be allowed into your service, you give my life purpose. Thank you goddess for giving meaning and guidance in my pathetic life". She responded "Yes I accept you as my precious whore". Then goddess gave me a new rule whenever I am alone I have to kneel. She explained "slut is a lower being, as so it should be lower than everyone". I have to ask permission to do anything other than kneel when alone. Goddesses power went out so we could not play anymore, we chatted before saying goodnight. I tried to keep the plug in for 24 hours as Goddess ordered, however the plug was to small for long term use it felt like it might get sucked in. I am so exited for our next session.

Any feedback, comments, questions or degradation is welcome!

Thank you.

-Goddesses Piss Whore Anal slave.